Our Graduation Day!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

It's still early in the morning, and here I am. Not even sleeping. Such an insomanic. Blergh. So, as promised before, I'm going to update you with our graduation day! Wehooo! We are now graduated! Alhamdulillah!

Great moments. Big time. Such a great day for me and my friends. We shared the same happiness and joy. I don't even know how to describe these feelings. The joy of getting your own Diploma. Handed by Pro-Canselor himself. As my name was mentioned by the emcee and I walked on the stage, I just couldn't believe it! Feeling great!!! Hahaha.

Oh yaa, I also had pre-convo shooting with the Siblings. Let's check it out!

I can't stop smiling! Tak jemu tengok semua gambar tu banyak kali. Dan pastinya, ada gathering bersama Twinnies dan Siblings. :D

I swear, I miss you guys already! Bila pulak boleh jumpa lagi. You guys are my world, my love. Thanks for always be there for me all this time. Banyak jasa korang, dan Allah sajalah boleh balas. Kita takkan berpecah kan? Aamiin. 

Thanks for those who support me from the begining, in the middle and also the end of my journey here, in Terengganu. You guys have been great. May Allah bless. :D

The Dream.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

It's been almost 6 months since we last met. And finally, I met you. Last night. In my dream. I can't tell how much I really want to meet you in real life. But, it's more than enough that He sent you in my dream, last night.

How I really wish, I was never wake up. Just to be with you in the dream. Watching you and talking to you. The dream of only you and me.

I'm afraid of waking up because I might never see you again; in other dream or in real life. I keep my eyes shut; to continue my dreaming. Knowing it is better than the reality. But, I know, I can't.

Here's the reality. I live in reality, and I put some dreams in it.



Lord, can I ever see him again in my other dreams?

Worst.

Do you know what's the worst thing ever when you are sad?
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To sleep with your teary eyes.    

Perempuan.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Perempuan, wanita, girl, woman.

Kau namakan saja makhluk Allah yang tiada halkum itu.

Pernah dengar istilah 

'Woman is complicated'

Yada yada .....

Atau seibaratnya?

Pasti pernah walau kau bukan pencinta wanita sekalipun.

Eh?

Iya, rumitnya seorang wanita itu 

amat sukar untuk difahami.

Usah kata makhluk Tuhan yang punyai halkum itu 

untuk faham yang namanya wanita,

Perempuan payah 

untuk fahamkan diri sendiri dan kewujudan mereka.

Apa kau kira mudah untuk fahami yang apabila senang,

Dia tersenyum lebar;

Menampakkan gigi putih meskipun giginya tidak rata.

Senyumnya boleh jadi secerah mentari terbit dan tenggelam.

Ketawa semahu hati dek tercuit humour.

Boleh jadi

dalam sekelip mata atau orang putih kata;

In the blink of an eye,

Makhluk unik itu 

berubah tingkah

sekali emosinya.

Mutiara jernih mengalir dari tubir mata

Jatuh ke pipi gebu miliknya.

Cengeng mula mengisi tempat.

Batinnya terjerit,

Namun suara tiada terkeluar.

Apa isi hatinya?

Rumit di hati

Gusar di fikir.

Cuba bertanya

Mahumu apa?

Sepi tanpa jawapan.

Gelengan dan keluhan.

Basah bantalnya

menampung air mata bersisa.

Senyum bisa jadi sendu.

Dekahan bertukar esakan.

Yakinnya dia bertukar 

jatuh ke bumi.
Terlebih sensitif.

Tak pernah dipamer

buat sang mata.

Rumitnya kami.

--- 14. 10. 2014 -- 03:33 am ---

Corat Coret.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Mungkin entri-entri aku lepas ini akan berkurang tentang aktiviti aku. Sekadar ingin menulis, meluah apa terbuku dan tersirat di hati. Aku akui menulis merupakan satu penawar bagi aku. Everytime I wrote something, let everything out through it, I will be much better. Entri-entri lepas ni pula mungkin akan jadi lebih pendek dan ringkas atau sekadar berkongsi gambar. Sudah tidak ada lagi cerita aku yang berjela-jela tu. Mungkin.

Puisi mungkin. We'll see.

Officially End.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Long time no see. So, our teaching practicum had already end. So do our diploma. Officially end. Alhamdulillah. It's been two years and half already. How times flies. So fast. I've done my studies. As a TESL student in UniSZA. I've also done my teaching practicum, which was so great and a meaningful experience.

I could still remember my last day in school. Had farewell party with 3IA. They made a surprise. They were hiding under the desks before I enter the class. Once I open the door, they did the firecrackers or whatever they called that thing. Haha. So sweet of them. They sang songs for me. And the most touching part was when they started to cry. And I was so touched when the naughtiest boy in class, even cried. They just don't want to let me go. They even followed me to the staff room. Crying and asked me not to leave the school. Got to promise with them that I will visit them again. This kids, hmm. :')

But still, I just couldn't believe that I left Terengganu, left UniSZA, SK Seberang Takir and also the people there. The memories created won't never be forgotten. Those memories that I bring together with me. Haih. :)

I miss Terengganu already. The beautiful beaches, our ports that we used to hang around. And of course, the people as well. Twinnies, Siblings, Teslians, UniSZAns and SKST's. I miss them, so damn much. :( It's only four days since I left Terengganu, but now I miss that place like crazy! Argh, pressureee! Huh. :((

I have like one year leave before I can go for degree. Which means next year. A year huh? I've planned things to do before the degree. Get a job and bla bla blaaa. A yearrrrrrrrrrrrr! Fuhh! Well, I can't wait to see them on Graduation Day this December. :D