Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
This is not even the first time. It happened so many times before. Sepatutnya aku sudah boleh mengagak perkara ini akan terjadi. Lagi.
Why did you always pull me in just to push me away? Every single time.
Ada ketika, kau beria.
Ada ketika, kau menjauh.
Kau tarik aku, sampai aku masih mahu kekal hingga ke saat ini. Sebaliknya, kau makin tolak aku.
Avoiding. Silencing. Shutting me out.
You're so confusing. I just don't know what to do anymore.
You and your attempts and efforts.
Please know that all your efforts to save me from you, will fail. Even if you're trying to keep your distance from me, will not lessen my affection for you. Somehow, it would be privilege to have my heart broken by you. Yeah, it might sounds crazy. But, damn it.
I've been thinking since then. And the question still remains.
What else that is not enough for you?
Was everything never enough?
When are you going to get it?
When will you get it through your exceptionally thick skull that I love you? So freaking love you!
Haihh. I just wish the whole thing hadn't happened sometimes. And now, you've made your decision.
"Sorry."
If sorry could fix everything, why would there be laws and police?
If sorry could fix hearts, then nobody would be broken hearted.
But then, you chose that, so I have to accept it, by hook or by crook, shouldn't I?
Walau macam mana susah dan berat sekalipun.
Teruskan mencari apa yang kau nak cari. Semoga kau jumpa apa yang kau cari.
I believe there's something good gonna come later. With or without you.
Maybe this is good for both of us. I don't know. HE knows the best and the whole thing.
Wherever you are, my prayer's with you. Take care.
Love,
Me.
